It's ALIIIIIIIIIIIVE!!

And it's a blob! BUT.. a blob with a heartbeat! :) Seriously an emotionally draining day, even though I've been having such positive thoughts the whole time, 3 days ago, I started feeling the negative vibes coming on.. whispering in my ear... dead baby dead baby! AHHH! Or- no baby! I don't know which was worse... I was going to be pretty pissed, since I have been feeling like crapola for the past month if the baby was not alive though! So, first of all.. I'm 9 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I was NOT told to drink a gallon (or what feels like a gallon) of water before this appointment. This led me to believe that they would be doing the (oh so scary- and scarier cause ive never had one!) transvaginal ultrasound! (see, it even SOUNDS scary!) So, I get in the room.. and I'm literally shaking (because of nerves and not the transvaginal thing)! Then, I'm expecting them to leave while I put on a gown or something.. but they don't. She just says, pull your pants down to the middle of your hips (sorry this is way too much info, I know.. but I'm into over sharing! soooo..) She puts the ultrasound wand on my belly... I'm scared to look, but decide that I can handle it and look! Instantly I say - there's no heartbeat.. with no hope at all in my voice... I see an image that could be a baby and no movement.. I assume the worst - naturally. The lady says, wwaaaaaaaitt a minute.. I'm not even there yet! oh.. Then THERE... and I completely lost it, that little heart flickering away! I had no idea that I would break down into a sobbing mess, but it was nothing I could control.. I bawled (which I'm sure was annoying for the ultrasound lady.. since how do you do your job while someone is jiggling all about!?) The study lady was in there too.. and she said can you let them hear it!? and she did!! It was a most beautiful sound.. 182 beats per minute of pure bliss! She said the baby was measuring right on! I don't know what I expected.. I would have been more shocked if there was no baby, what with all the puking and sleeping.. but for some reason I feel shocked that there IS a baby... it's the strangest feeling. Here are some pictures of our blob.. I seriously have NO idea what any of these are of.. I wasn't going to add them, but Shaun thinks, blob or not.. we should! sooo here you go!!