Thursday, February 12, 2009

It's ALIIIIIIIIIIIVE!!

And it's a blob! BUT.. a blob with a heartbeat! :) Seriously an emotionally draining day, even though I've been having such positive thoughts the whole time, 3 days ago, I started feeling the negative vibes coming on.. whispering in my ear... dead baby dead baby! AHHH! Or- no baby! I don't know which was worse... I was going to be pretty pissed, since I have been feeling like crapola for the past month if the baby was not alive though! So, first of all.. I'm 9 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I was NOT told to drink a gallon (or what feels like a gallon) of water before this appointment. This led me to believe that they would be doing the (oh so scary- and scarier cause ive never had one!) transvaginal ultrasound! (see, it even SOUNDS scary!) So, I get in the room.. and I'm literally shaking (because of nerves and not the transvaginal thing)! Then, I'm expecting them to leave while I put on a gown or something.. but they don't. She just says, pull your pants down to the middle of your hips (sorry this is way too much info, I know.. but I'm into over sharing! soooo..) She puts the ultrasound wand on my belly... I'm scared to look, but decide that I can handle it and look! Instantly I say - there's no heartbeat.. with no hope at all in my voice... I see an image that could be a baby and no movement.. I assume the worst - naturally. The lady says, wwaaaaaaaitt a minute.. I'm not even there yet! oh.. Then THERE... and I completely lost it, that little heart flickering away! I had no idea that I would break down into a sobbing mess, but it was nothing I could control.. I bawled (which I'm sure was annoying for the ultrasound lady.. since how do you do your job while someone is jiggling all about!?) The study lady was in there too.. and she said can you let them hear it!? and she did!! It was a most beautiful sound.. 182 beats per minute of pure bliss! She said the baby was measuring right on! I don't know what I expected.. I would have been more shocked if there was no baby, what with all the puking and sleeping.. but for some reason I feel shocked that there IS a baby... it's the strangest feeling. Here are some pictures of our blob.. I seriously have NO idea what any of these are of.. I wasn't going to add them, but Shaun thinks, blob or not.. we should! sooo here you go!!

16 comments:

Ruth Chowdhury said...

Aw, Shannon! That's a beautiful "blob". hee hee That's so awesome that you could see and hear the heartbeat. Thanks for sharing!

Heather E said...

I am crying right now! YEA!!!! Thank you so much for sharing the pictures of your "blob". You really can see the spine, head, arm and leg buds and everything beautiful!! Was Gwen there? Thank you! Thank you!

The Fabulous Ms. Beth said...

:) I *heart* your "blob"! I remember sobbing when we saw baby Kate as a little blob for the first time too!
So happy for you!

Dawn said...

Shannon, I was thinking about you all day and I am soooo HAPPY to see the pictures. That is some heartbeat there 182 mmmmm. 9 weeks that means only 3 more weeks of first trimester all day sickness!!!

Michelle S said...

happy dance!

Michelle R said...

that little 'blob' has brought tears to my eyes :)

bir said...

Woo hooo Shannon! I get teary just imagining my turn there, and seeing the heart fluttering. I just can't imagine it, actually.
I'm so happy for you!

x

Mom and Dad said...

Yea!!! What happy news. It might be a blob but it is our blob, growing into a healthy baby. I am so glad that they let you hear the heart beat.

danielaerin said...

Congratulations!! Thank you for sharing your sweet blob with us.

Brandon Mitchell said...

Congrats again guys! And I'm pretty sure you're totally entitled to be a sobbing mess when you first hear your baby's heartbeat for the first beat.

Beth Skog said...

I am crying too!! I cant even imagine the emotions you felt when you were hearing your sweet babies heartbeat...I love the pictures!! Thanks for sharing!!

Melissa said...

What a beautiful "blob"!!! Congrats on a heartbeat! This has made my day. :)

k@lakly said...

Excellent news!! Keeping evrything crossed for more reports just like this one!
xxoo

P.S. I didn't have an ultrasound with Cason where I didn't stress out or cry. Comes with the club membership, that and a set of steak knives.

Gwen said...

Oh, Shannon, I am crying just reading your story! I'm so glad you got to hear and see your sweet little one's heartbeat. Truly a most beautiful sight and sound!!!

Melissa said...

Hey Shannon! Just wanted to let you know I've tagged you in my blog. :)

Jay said...

Oh BEAUTIFUL! I have some of those of Josie. I am SO overjoyed for you! SO amazingly happy. This is such a wonderful thing and I am SO PROUD to be healing with you, my wonderful friend. XXXXX