34 weeks

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Here we are! Less than 4 weeks before we get to hold this little one in our arms (and probably NEVER put her down!) It's getting so close and time is passing so quickly. We've got plenty to do before the big arrival!(actually Shaun has plenty to do! haha) I'm also really grateful for all these NST's.. a few weeks ago, I thought it was 'overkill' I didn't really need to be seen twice a week, right? Now, I look forward to these appointments - I need the reassurance that she's doing well in there. The closer we get, the more anxiety I feel. I will never go back to the happy innocence that I felt this same time last year.. it's just not possible. There are a few items that I'd like to buy.. but I struggle to buy them before she's home... small things, like baby wipes, nursing cream, - we've still got a giant box of diapers in the closet.. and can clothes that were washed last year still be clean enough for a baby or should I wash them again? I've tried so hard to not 'count my chickens' but the truth is, this little chicken has counted for months already! We have 3 children... no matter what happens now. Gwen is usually excited about the baby - but every once in a while, she changes her mind.. "I don't want a baby anymore" - yowch, that stings! Maybe she's protecting herself just in case? I don't know if a 3.5 yr old is capable of something so deep? I've also realized (aside from just plain ole' preggo brain) why I can't remember ANYTHING! It's because from the time I wake up til the time I go to bed, I'm constantly thinking - when is the last time she moved? I've only got room for so many thoughts! I even think this when I wake up in the middle of the night to pee! I get worried.. I haven't felt her in a while!? Uhh... DUH! You've been sleeping! Hey, I'm just amazed that it's taken me THIS long to get a little nuts! haha But, I'm not the only one.. yesterday while talking to my mom I said.. my back it hurting! :( (I think I had a bit of that sciatic nerve thing going on that people always talk about) and she says "is the baby moving?" I was like, yeah.. well not at the moment, but a little bit ago.. sooo anyhoo.. I guess that's all I got for now! 27 DAYS!