6 months

Wow, half a year gone. I've gotta say, it's getting to me, even more than normal. It's hard to grasp that the world goes on without your loved one, isn' t it? But it does.. days just keep going by. 6 months out, Dresden is still a constant thought in my mind. I've relived the whole Dresden experience hundreds of times, trying to make sense of what happened. Mostly I'm at peace with not knowing.. but it doesn't stop the wondering. Gwen names all of her babies "baby Dresden" and she thinks that baby Dresden is in my belly now, too.. it's hard to explain to her that it's not the same baby. I'm glad that he's remained a constant in our lives, even though he's not with us. He will stay this way, for all of our lives, all of our children will know their brother as well as we do. In the next couple of months, we'll be planting an apple tree in memory of Dresden. I'm still not sure where.. originally it was going to be toward the back of our yard. Now I think I'd like it closer to us, so maybe as part of the garden area? We'll see. We miss you and love you sweet boy!

written 3/2/09 and saved to post 3/9/09