Saturday, May 9, 2009

8 months

He'd be 8 months old today.. instead of watching him crawl across the green soggy grass in our yard, we dug a hole. A hole for his apple tree. We poured his ashes into our hands and sprinkled them into the hole, and sobbed as we missed our sweet boy. Did I think I would cry? I really didn't.. I thought I'd be fine, I felt like this was a good healing event, and I didn't expect quite so many tears. Gwen asked, "what's wrong momma? Are you crying?" I said, "yes, because I miss Dresden".. she then went off to find me a 'napkin' to wipe my tears. Sweet little girl, where would we be without her? So, the tree is in the ground and it feels really good to have something living to remember our sweet son. I look forward to many years of apples, sitting next to Dresden's tree and sharing his memory with all of our children.


9 comments:

angie said...

Eight months. So so sorry, Shannon. The tree is such a beautiful thing. We are planting one tomorrow, I think, if I can get out of bed. Thinking of you and Dresden...xo

Michelle R said...

what a lovely memorial!

Fireflyforever said...

Oh Shannon. I hope the tears brought some healing. Sometimes a good ole' cry is absolutely what's required. I hope your lovely tree thrives. I haven't dared try any living memorial for Emma because I'm so terrified of it dying. We're going to plant daffodils around her headstone when we get it. Hopefully, they'll be indestructible.

Inanna said...

Oh what a lovely tree, a beautiful tribute. Wiping *tears* with you, mama.

Melissa said...

Hugs to you all. What a wonderful tribute to sweet Dresden.

Shannon Ryan said...

Jill! I am terrified that his living memorial will die too! I will be so crushed, so hopefully all the love and affection we give it.. and of course... water, will keep it thriving! But I'll be on pins and needles for the first couple years until it's well established.

Heather E said...

What a bitter sweet moment. We are sending hugs your way!

Michelle S said...

what a beautiful memorial, and what a good idea on making a pie each year to memoralize him. brings tears to my eyes...

Dalene said...

Beautiful tree, Shannon. Thankfully, B's lilac made it through the winter and is blooming profusely now. Sending you hugs.