Anonymous comment

Someone left the following comment at Dresden's name in the sand post.. I'm not sure who it is, but I wanted to say thank you for the beautiful comment that is so soo true! I only wish love could have saved my sweet little son, I wish that every day.

Dresden,I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that if love alone could have saved you, you would be in your mama's arms right now. Look after your family, little man.

Brittany Spears.. MY Idol?????????

HAHA Well, not really.. BUT, maybe a little.. because see.. now any woman who has had a cesarean and got pregnant 3 months later, is totally MY IDOL! ;) Funny to think of Brittany and an idol to a 31 year old who really does not have "idols", isn't it?

I'm alright..

That is how I answer the age old question.. "How are you?" Usually asked by an unsuspecting checkout person who really doesn't want to know how you are! I can't lie and say I'm good.. so I say alright.. which to me says, I've been better without sounding quite so negative. Today I was at Sam's club.. The cashier asked.. I answered. Usually it stops at that.. but THIS cashier.... whoa.. actually cared? "Not feeling well today?" she asked. I said, no I feel fine.. and she kept on.. so I told her why I'm just alright. I don't pass up any good chance to talk to someone about my son. I have limited ways of sharing him, you know. AND.. she said, I had a daughter, she lived for about an hour. Her words stab me in the chest... oh, how I hate hearing of other babies dying too soon.. I asked her when her baby died.. she said, OH! It's been 20 years now.. you don't forget! Her words are familiar.. One day, I will assure some grief stricken mother that her baby will never be forgotten too, and I will hope that my words bring her some solace.

Psychic Gwennie?

The other night I went out shopping with Shaun's mom. Shaun and Gwen hung out at his folks house while we shopped.. Gwen announced that she needed to go open the door for mommy. Shaun decided to 'humor' her and let her out the door to see that we weren't back yet.. what a surprise he got when he saw us at the door, trying to get in! (They locked the screen because when we first left 1.5 hrs before, Gwen went out to look for us! YIKES!!) Anyway, she was right.. we needed the door opened for us! :)
THEN!...
Last night Gwen was talking to Shaun while I was in the kitchen.. I heard parts of the conversation.. mainly that she was talking about Dresden and his stocking. When I returned, Shaun said - did you catch any of what she was saying? Then he told me that she said that "when Dresden gets a new body, he can come home and be with us and see his stocking on the christmas tree!" WHA? This is not something we've talked to her about, and not something we've really talked about at all (though I have thought about it).. I have no idea where she got that idea from!
I guess, I really need to listen with totally open ears when Gwen talks, eh?

Names in the Sand

A family in Austraila who lost their baby boy honors our babies by writing their name in the sand. It's so beautiful! They have done this for 700+ families so far! Here is Dresden's name in the sand.

http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com/2008/11/dresden.html